Thanksgiving for me.

This post is just my own pissing and moaning but I needed to get these things out there.

So my girlfriend is 9 months pregnant and I am looking forward to my first of kin any day now. I look forward to meeting my son but it seems like no one else really is. Her family is very supportive of everything where my family, namely my mother and sister, couldn’t care less if they tried. Now that I think about it, my dad doesn’t really give a rats ass either, it’s almost like I have become this evil person that no one knows anymore, and it’s not by my own fault.

This Thanksgiving is working out the be more ass than all the holidays that I had when I lived on Long Island near my father. It’s like my family doesn’t know how to act or what to do to be a part of their own family members lives. The things that they should do and would be expected from normal people they don’t do, with the exception of my sister whom is married now and has a child of her own (Emily). Unfortunatley I live too far away from her to have a bigger part in her life but I am happy that she is doing well.

Thanksgiving this year is really not going to plesant for me because to start with my Grandmother is not going to have dinner this year at her house, not that I can blame her since she is now in her 80′s. The problem with not having dinner at my Grandparents house is that me and my sister are the youngest grandchildren/cousins, now 26 and 18  where everyone else is now in their 30′s and have families of their own now. It kind of leaves the youngest out the the bunch out in the cold where there respective families are now having thier own holiday meetings.

So let us get back to my mother, now I love the lady, I really do, but she isn’t much of a cook or anything, not that it’s a problem. So this year since nothing is going on with the family around here she is going out of town to go to some resturant to have dinner with my sister. I am really disappointed here because I would really like her to be nearby when my first born arrives. With her out of town I don’t feel like I am getting the support that I would need for when this happens. Not that I am the one that has the spotlight or anything but I am scared and would like my mother to be nearby if and when I need her. This is an important time in my life and in hers for her to be out galivanting about the countryside.

Well I suppose that is enough for now. Just needed to write down what I thought.